Thursday, July 25, 2013

My Battle Equals Victory!

I just wanted to share about a battle I am going through.  I went to the doctors and had a patch on my hip and it was dry and flaky, I had this for many years but my Father and Mother both had Psoriasis so I just figured that is what it was.  It started out the size of a dime and got bigger over the years.
  A few years ago I went to my family doctor and he froze it and took a small cut of it and sent to the skin centre to be analysed.  I  went back for the results 3 weeks later and he said it was eczema.  I thought that was kind of odd as there is no eczema in my family history but just shrugged it off and got creams and stuff for it.  It never went away but faded a bit so I just figured it was fine.
  I noticed it getting bigger and I went to the doctor in March of this year as I had an appointment and I told him I have to see a dermatologist.  He sent me to one, at the appointment I told her that my doctor dissected it and sent it away for testing and the results were eczema.  She told me that the tests were inconclusive as he didn't take a proper specimen.  I was a bit surprised so she froze me and sent my sample away for analysis.  I went back 3 weeks later and she told me I had Cancer(Mycosis Fungoides).  I asked her what it was and she told me this is cancer of the skin and t cells in the lymph nodes. and then she told me just to research on the internet.  I was in SHOCK when she told me !  In the meantime other things in my life was going on like getting ready to move.  I was glad to find a diagnosis for what I had on one hand but on the other hand I was scared.  It answered a lot of questions as to why I felt fatigued for the past year as I didn't understand why I felt the way I did.  Another symptom of this condition is night sweats which I had been having but I figured because I was in Menopause that this is why I was having night sweats.  I was so stressed out at work that I had to take a leave.  I went to Toronto to the Women's Health Center to see a specialist and the treatments are set up for August.  I have to have 30 treatments of light therapy.  So I have to commute to Toronto 3 times a week(Mon, Wed, Fri ) for 10 weeks and after I will be checked.
  When I found this news out I went to work and felt sick and stressed, I felt alone and isolated with this condition.  Some people do not understand what you are going through and think you are fine because you look alright.  I have felt terrribly fatigued with this condition and have started taking vitamins to help me through this.
When I felt scared to hear the word Cancer I though of a scripture that gave me peace.  It is If God brings you to it he will bring you through it.  After I read this I had the reassurance inside of me and  I knew that I was going to be alright.
Without a Battle there is no Victory!!
Remember if you are battling Cancer you are not alone, there are people that do care and are survivors. I met a few people that have encouraged me through this ordeal. Try to stay positive to get you through and avoid any negativity in your life!
I have my days when I feel down and don't feel good but I know I will make it and everything is going to be alright.  This is just a storm cloud in life and the storm will pass and the sun will shine again!
One day at a time.

~Remember sometimes people can look good on the outside but you don't know what is going on in the inside of them so never judge by someone's appearance~
~Try to be sensitive to others as they may be going through a strong storm in their life.  Try to be a blessing and Encourage them~

I hope that my story encourages or inspires someone and remember you are not alone!
If you have any comments please share them below if you would like or send me an email at I would love to hear from you.

~Have a Blessed day! ~


  1. I really like what you wrote, "Remember sometimes people can look good on the outside but you don't know what is going on in the inside of them so never judge by someone's appearance" <- that is so very true!

    I know you are going to be okay and everything will work out : ) I am here for you!!!

    Keep us updated with the light treatment and how it is going for you!

  2. Thinking of you. You have a great positive outlook which I'm sure will help you get through this.